square one

back at square one
and trying not to beat myself up about it
im learning a lot about myself these days
im learning about why i react to certain things like i do
it feels good to have a finger on where it all started
why its so easy for me to be negative
and hard to be positive
why compliments feel like a sucker punch in the stomach
and why life always seems a little less bright
but im on the right path
and thats as good as anything i've been able to say
for quite some time