blood relative

i wont pretend that i dont remember anymore
how could i forget
being made to feel pathetic, and told id be nothing without you
i grew into a man and tossed away everything you ever taught me
and the sky opened up
and i felt love for the first time in my goddamn life
the endless cycle, histories of abuse
but were not supposed to talk about it, are we?
this family was built on denial
and abuse is the mud between the bricks
i dont need you anymore
it ends where i end it
cause i am stronger than all of you
and i have the courage to say whats wrong
and stand, outcast, in the midst of all of you
your shame dies with you
i wont be around anymore
i wont be a part of this
i will not be a witness to the passing of the abusive torch
you are nothing to me
and i am better off without you
go live your lie
bury yourself in it
its blinding that way, isnt it?
you dont feel the guilt that way
a buried piece of shit is still a piece of shit
fuck all of you, every one of you
youre not dead to me
you never existed