i dont like doing things im supposed to do, things i have to do.
i dont like being told i dont have a choice.
i always have a choice.
i refuse to accept these things as parts of life and living.
i dont assimilate them into my everyday routine.
for some people its about maintaining happiness and not being angered by things they cant control.
i guess i would rather just be pissed off and hate the fact that i have stupid shit in my life, and even stupider people telling me that i have to do them.
thats how it was with school.
constantly pissed off that i had to be in the stupid fucking building with all those stupid fucking people who actually gave a shit how i looked, and made me feel like i had to give a shit because they gave a shit.

im tired of our society.

im tired of people assuming that i'll do the things that they do, and when i dont they get mad at me.
at work, i do what i have to do to get the job done, and then i'll usually sit with a book and read for a good half hour.
fellow co-workers sometimes get pissed at me, mostly because they themselves cant just say fuck it and sit down with a book.
so they turn to anger, and expect me to give a shit that they are mad at me.
people take their lifes to seriously, and especially take their shitty jobs to seriously, and i cannot stress shitty enough.
im gonna do what i want to do because i know its my right to do it.
i dont hurt anybody, i dont even disrupt the steady flow of your precious little lives.
i just do things the way i want to do them.
fuck, half the time i see those very same people coming to me for advice.

no one is above, or below me.
no one has authority over me.
this is how i have to be in order to be happy.
i am not happy falling in line and following our way.
any attempt and trying to change my ways will be met with hostility.
in short, i will fuck with your head until you dont want to talk to me anymore.

ever wonder why youre so unhappy?