life ruiner

its easy to pass your judgements

when you don't walk in my skin

yet you find it ok to try my life on 

like a pair of shoes

but when it doesn't suit you

off it goes

i have to live this

i have to make it my own

so no i don't think your judgements matter

and no i don't feel like you are worth my time anymore

you pretended your way into my world

said everything i've ever wanted to hear

and shielded your pathetic little body with mine

i took the damage

i took the brunt of it

for you

you convinced me you were worth it

and i believed you

and when things were so far in

when the roots were so ingrown

you dropped me on my head

pulled the rug out from underneath me

and everything in my world crashed and broke around me

and there you stood

like a scared little girl

apologizing, with her hands to her mouth

sorry doesn't cut it

you asked me to trust you

so i did

you asked me to love you

so i did

you asked to be a part of my world

you were the one that came to me

so i let you in

and you burned it to the ground

we were trying to build foundations for life

on the ground of a scared little girl

who swore she knew who she was

who swore she understood 

and at the worst moment, you backed out

you fucked me over

and you ruined my life

so you'll have to forgive me

if i don't look at you so friendly anymore

my life is in shambles

and its because of you

your words mean shit to me

because i've had time to look at what they mean

and they are hollow

you are are hollow

and you don't mean the things you say

you just don't have the guts to stand on your own to feet

so you lean on other people

like a fucking leech

living off other people

you are scum

you are the reason people kill themselves

you are the reason that understanding between two people will never be achieved

all because of people like you

who don't have the balls to admit to themselves that they are hurting people

you are so good at lying to yourself

its your last line of defense

you pull the wool over your own eyes

cause you'd rather not see the truth

it makes you pick at your skin

it makes you look in the mirror

and see ugliness

cause the truth fucking hurts

you are ugly

and you are embarrassing

and you should be destroyed

have it your way

it'll all gonna come down on your head in the end

and i will have my revenge

i will wait it out

to find you when you are down

and kick your teeth in

i want to really drive it home

that you are the one to blame

you are the reason for other peoples pain and suffering

and you can run away

and create a new identity for yourself all you want

you can jump on this new bandwagon

and throw some labels on yourself

but we all know you

and we know how hollow you are

and you look like a joke

you're a broken fawn trying to convince herself she's a buck

you aren't capable

you never were

its pathetic