doomed to repeat

we are liars when we say we love each other

we say forever and mean whenever its convenient 

and when it stops being convenient

we'll throw each other away with the garbage

we're damaged goods

and thats about it

the sky doesn't open up

the angels live only in books

the sensation is only chemical

and the new toy feeling fades

the worst part of it all is admitting it to yourself

we're on our own, all alone

and we foolishly try to be together

the cycle repeats

the story is plagiarized

and no one seems to notice

or learn the lesson

dreams are a cruel joke

stagnant

too fucking tired to care

my burned out rock n roll dreams

laughing back at me

i love the sound of spinning your wheels

and how it keeps me up at night

stuck at the mercy of other people

i need a helping hand

i need a tow out of this rut

theres no drugs when the money runs out

and no other comfort comes close

im dependent by default

and i have a very big problem with that

born inside this machine

with a sinking feeling that something isn't right

avalanche

words of wisdom?

or an avalanche of bullshit

nothing impresses me

and everything saddens me

i live for the moments

when i forget the grief 

when the energies align

and i don't remember how fucked it all is

you had a dream?

fuck your dream

you haven't earned a dream

you gotta live it and prove you mean it

thats the only way

all their smiles

all their faces

its all so confusing to me

what am i missing?

why does it make me want to

kill myself

napoleon complex

children play games

trying to emulate the work of a man

little men do the same thing

puffing up their chest

trying to prove themselves harder than most

its a sad affair and its pathetic

you aren't earning any respect

you're just making everyone roll their eyes at you

those who resemble children will be treated like children

when they act like children

don't force my hand

and get upset when its time to pay the consequences

don't prod at a bomb

and cry 'woe is me' when it goes off in your face

don't raise your hand

to a dog that's been beaten

cause when you are forced to comply with the laws of nature

survival of the fittest will come into play

and the little man trying to wear a big mans shoe

will be swallowed whole

word of the wise

know when you shut your mouth

you may feel like you've been to dark places

but i will show you darkness where nothing grows

i will show you the distance

where friend or foe is no longer a distinction

where madness and chaos are the only law

and when i am picking my teeth with your bones

i will feel nothing

that kind of girl

that kind of girl

you can tell all your secrets to

try to hold on but

you can't help but slip

she's the kind that matters

the one you've been waiting for

she holds her own head up

she wont be ignored

she asks me for nothing

'scept my company

and we talk till the sun comes out

and fall to our knees

we laugh a lot, giggle

about stupid things

cause theres beauty in the details

like tugging on strings

she knows how to make things

seem even better

with the sound of her voice

i can't forget her

she went right in my head

i knew it that moment

we don't need lights

just the glow of the tv

and everything feels

encased in a bubble

its just us in the world

the rest is just simple

and i feel her shake

a nervous little jitter

cause for once it is real

she feels something big

and i know that i feel it

my heart starts to hang

im alive for the first time

in a very long while

the light crept right in

and opened up everything

ashes to ashes

whatever you want

you can ask of me anything

which rooms to haunt

and gods not a person 

i do believe

but it made a small place here

for you and me

and if i could just thank it

i owe it so much

but it doesn't want anything

but a life for us

that kinda girl

that could change your whole world

by simply existing

like some kind of pearl

she don't know what she has

its just part of her soul

but to me its so valuable

better than gold

i would give it all up

im that kind of fool

just to keep it all sacred

for me its a rule

when you got one that matters

everything tossed

to the side of your caring

another days lost

i don't have anything

theres nothing to lose

i can feel my heart shaking

strippin at the screws