for life
for the way things never change
for the weight we wake up to everyday
this life is no life
for the legs that just keep walking
cause they dont know what else to do
for the heart thats only purpose is to beat
not to think about why its beating
for the love were all told will come someday
and never does
for the feeling of loss
for the feeling of betrayal
for knowing that you just arent really in love
and not having the courage to be honest
for the coward in us all
for the number of times a back has been turned
for the amount of months it takes to get over it
for the way we look at ourselves in the mirror and cant even force a smile
for the countless sleepless nights
for the stomach pains
for the medical bills, the prozac, the anxiety medication, the mood stabilizers
lexapro, zyprexa, klonapin
for the way our only way out is to fill ourselves with anything
just to stop the pain
no plan you can make will ever turn out the way you wanted
life has a way of going its own way
for the people we push away
for the days weve spent in bed
for the ways we feel like complete and utter shit and cant give you a single reason why
for pointlessness
for loneliness
for the addiction to our own natural chemicals
and the addiction to the company of someone else
for the habit of isolation
for the back and forth, twist and turn, constant indecision
for the days ruined by one simple thoughtless comment
for the acceptance of what is easy and knowing it isnt right
knowing who you really are is half the battle
for the inability to stand up by yourself and not worry about the opinions of people around you
for never letting go, good or bad
for not knowing if its a good thing or a bad thing
for the judgemental attitudes
for the people who use the "dont judge me" excuse to hide behind the wrong they know they are doing
for the complete lack of faith in anyone but yourself
for the lack of faith in you by anyone else
for better or worse
for quotes that people swear by, but they do not apply to life anymore
for disappointment
disappointment.