had a moment

they're quoting my lyrics now. i dunno, i guess you just feel like a nerd who sits in his room and fantasizes. you never actually think anything will come of it. then you see it, in plain black and white, right in front of your face. the message was received. they get it. they understand what you are trying to say. after not being understood for so long and having everything you say misconstrued and taken out of context you just start to lose faith that anyone will ever understand you, then you stumble on to a friend quoting your lyrics on his facebook page and he's referring to a girl he met recently. i dont even really know what to say about it. there's no words for once. its what i've always wanted really, to have an emotion identified, to share something that feels so personal and weird and unique that you think people would think you were crazy if you just blurted it out and told them, so you put it in a song cause thats the only way you can get it out cause when it sits inside you like that it just fucks you up. you can't even breathe right cause it sits in your chest. the song needs to get out and if it doesnt it just fucks up your day. it will not be pushed down. so, anyway, you write the song, you get the emotion out, the feeling of how you were feeling on that day, that time, that moment, and you hope you did it justice and put it down in art form the right way, you hope you got it right to transfer the feeling to a medium, and then you send it away and someone receives it, gets it right off the bat, feels the feeling, knows exactly the emotion you are feeling, feels it too, equates it to someone in his life and has that same feeling. that to me is fucking insane. you cannot pay me enough money to make me stop doing that. there isnt enough money or food or treasures in the world more beautiful than that. holy fuck i seriously am emotional over his. i never really thought about it like this. i never though "what if they get it." its a fault on my part cause i never prepared myself for how i would feel if they actually got it. i guess i always consider my words and my lyrics to fall on deaf ears cause it does for so many people. well, i guess i was wrong. they get it. its getting out there and these songs are potent and real. holy fuck is that heavy.