Don't raise awareness, we do not care.

 

I saw a bracelet for sale to raise awareness for suicide prevention, and I instantly went to anger. Sure, let’s sell a bracelet so we can all show off to our friends that we are troopers in the fight against suicide. This company is making money off of suicide and the suffering of others, yet they’re quick to bitch about drug dealers getting rich off the suffering of others. The hypocrisy nauseates me. Let's capitalize on suicide!!!!

I feel like commenting on the post as a suicidal person and introducing myself as the very thing they are against.

“Hi there, suicidal person here. Yep, hospital records to prove it. Anyway, how much of these bracelets are you selling? Making quite the profit, huh? Well I can honestly tell you that you will not stop me from killing myself with your stupid bracelet, and the very idea of the exchange of any money for something like this just confirms all our suspicions that you outsiders, who have never had suicidal thoughts, are completely missing the point."

This idiotic act of raising awareness for suicide is the very thing that makes suicidal people kill themselves. It’s the banality of the world at large, and the constant annoyance and berating of morons who can only think and function in one way, that anyone else who might operate outside of those parameters is not accepted and does not belong to our society.

Raise all the awareness you want. Raise it so much so you can all watch us as we put a gun to our head and pull the trigger. Good for you, back pats for everyone, all you really did was put all the eyes on us as we actually commit the act.

Your awareness will not stop anyone. It wont prevent suicide. I say this as a person who is constantly having thoughts of taking his life. None of this makes me feel like anyone has my back, or gives me second thoughts. I don’t care about your opinions on my suicide. That’s the point in the first place; throwing it all away.

Why are we so convinced that any of it was all that great to begin with? Have any of you ever stopped and asked yourselves that? Sure, there are good things in life, I’ll give you that, but it’s not enough. For someone like me, it’s never enough. No amount of sunshine or feel good movie is going to make it enough for me to want to live and not take myself out.

The clueless-ness of all of these groups that want to prevent suicide is staggering. I’ve looked in to all of them and not one of you have found the real point. None of you get it. You always make it about yourselves and how it hurts your feelings when someone takes themselves away from you. I dunno, maybe it is you! I can’t say for certain, but this allying yourself with the suicidal is not going to ease your heart or save your soul. You are not one of us. We are not the same. You will never understand it, and we will never feel like you understand. We will never speak to each other as equals because I have seen with eyes that see behind the curtain of all of this, from a perspective that puts the whole thing into it’s pointless conclusion.

You have to accept the fact that sometimes people kill themselves to get the fuck away from people like you. So what are you doing that’s so bad? Existing.

There’s nothing anyone can do about it. You are just living your lives as you are. We cannot change you. We cannot bring you to our side our come to some understanding, it doesn’t work that way. Your lives and watching you live them is a constant gag reel on repeat, everyday, watching the same old crap and watching the same old mistakes.

People like me can make the deduction that nothing can be done about this, because the problem is too big for anyone to tackle. The problem is bigger than the will of man. You will never stop a truly suicidal person, and anyone who has been stopped wasn’t really wanting to do it in the first place. A cry for help is not the same thing as living in a suicidal existence, where everything pales in comparison, where every joy, every love cannot compare to the allure of just ending it all and letting it all go.

You cannot save us, because we don’t want to be saved. There is nothing to save. I cannot bring you to my side any more than you can bring me to yours, and the only difference is that people like you cannot sit comfortably with that fact, while we can.