journal entry

i'll float around for a bit if i have to, but only long enough to run around frantically and figure out what im doing and get some sort of control over things. i will not let this bury me. its depressing the hell out of me and thats already more than i should take. i need to get some sort of foundation again and work from there. i will not be defeated. i will find a rung to climb and surpass all you fucks, cause thats what i do and thats what im good at. and when im at the top i will piss on all of you who tried to burn me, and tried to bury me. this is not over. i just need to mend my wounds and i'll be back to cut you down.