Anhedonia

Everybody loves you

Everybody loves you

All I hears a dial tone

All I hears a dial tone

I feel numb, I feel

I feel numb, numb, I feel numb

I feel nothing

I am so ungrateful

I am so ungrateful

Smell the flowers, scoff at the flowers

This is not enough

Never enough, I give up

Somethings wrong with me

Somethings wrong with you

Damaged goods and broken

Damaged goods and broken

Not enough to fill the void

Carl Jung and Sigmond Freud

Emptiness, emptiness, emptiness

Shapes without content

I have grown to resent

I am not the one

Not your loving son

Love is cultivated

Only if reciprocated

Adoration is useless

Counterproductive nonsense

I feel nothing, give me something

Pinch me, cut me, slap me, nothing

I’m not living, this isn’t living

A house is not a home like

A beating heart is not a life

A breathing lung is not purpose

A pop up tent is not a circus

Cannot smile without a force

Can’t take from my own source

Numb and emptiness, Numb and emptiness

Feel so goddamn lonely

Everyones a phony

Envy isn’t flattering

Marvel at my puppet string

Dance and sing my sorrow

Another fucking tomorrow

Dull hum of life, dragging on strife

This movie is boring

Fell asleep and snoring

Daydreaming is a constant

I feel so despondent

Smile for the picture

Keeping up appearance

Lets all play pretend

Joy is on clearance

You don’t even know me

You see what you want to see

Idolatry’s beneath you

You could do what I do

My brain never stops

Cannot shake this off

Constant nagging torture

Textbook case disorder

My biggest supporter

Will be the loudest mourner

Crying over spilled milk

Laid to rest in fine silk

Appreciation not found

Six feet gently lowered down

Rotting in the cold ground

Suicide king wears his crown

He never married, he never married

What a shame, what a waste

Never found his sanctuary

Such a sad and forlorn disgrace

Onto the next, time will forget

Bones to dust, space resets

Just four generations

Completes all negation

Records are deleted

History repeated

Life left uncompleted

Time is undefeated