I dare anyone to go through the things I have been forced and coerced into going through to have handled it any better than i have. Most of you don't even know the half of it, and don't even want to know the horrible details. You know nothing of having no choice but to shove it down inside and hold it there while your entire body fights to get it out, but if you let it out someone will hurt you and beat you until you can barely feel anything anymore.

You don't understand and have never experienced the numbness and bitterness. The self infliction which is a manifestation of not having any other way to deal with it, but it turn it on yourself so that it doesnt hurt anyone else. You don't know the burdens we carry and what it weighs, and yet we still function and live in your world. We are stronger and better than all of you. We survive.

Next time you want to question my behavior or my mood, think about what you are asking, and wheather you really want to know the truth, or you just want to play hero and assimilate someone unlike you into your perfect world and make them more like you, cause the truth is you really just cant deal with people that are unlike you. You are the weak one, you are the ignorant. You couldn't handle an hour in my shoes, and you would have killed yourself a long time ago if you experienced half of what I have.

So I don't feel I owe any fools, or lesser beings an explanation for my actions or my moods. If you don't get it, or can't accept it then thats where our paths end. If i explained it to you, like actually showed you and made you feel it, it would warp you and change you and disfigure your from the inside out, and you would never be the same. You can't handle this, you can't handle the reality, so stay the fuck out of it and keep your overbearing need to save everybody to yourself.