littered fields

just one more night

is all i'll give it

before i cut this fucker out

this beating bullshit inside my chest

is driving me fucking insane

ive got a missing piece of skin

for every fucking stupid thing anyone has ever 

said to me

it wont get easier

it wont feel better in the end

we all just lie to ourselves

until it doesnt hurt

until we forget

or medicate the pain

too obsessive

and over compulsive

and always ready to beat myself up

I watch the stars

Rise above the Horizon

Taking you on

Like a tyrant against millions of humans

dead 

weight

Just one night I want to lie

Alone and not care

i cant move this,       

overwhelming,       

feeling of guilt,      

off of my chest