left behind

she left me with a suddenness like whiplash
i never expected to hurt like this
i never expected she of all people would do this to me
you look for where to place the fault
but people have to follow their pathetic hearts
cause thats the way we are wired

you resent the reasons
you resent the result
every way out shines bright as the sun
escape seems like the best idea
but you cant turn and run
cause theres nowhere to go
except gone for good

you think about the people
the ones that say they love you
and how you cant do that to them
you cant interrupt their happiness
to pine over shit like you
to miss your stupid face
and the way you lie to them

she jumped ship with speed and accuracy
too fast to believe it wasnt planned
i am left with the void
with the throb of her abscence
weighing in my heart
pulling down each day
making everything a little less fun

we used to dream together
we built fantasies the likes ive never seen
entire dream worlds
where we were happy forever
then she quit the team
she brought me out
into this world i would never have gotten to alone
i would never have wanted to go to alone
and then she left me here
the only reason for me being here