damage

why do i feel so goddamn sad, why can't i just let go

all the preparing for the world outside just kept my feelings closed

now i feel like im a child even though i am a man

and my heart feels like its bursting when they all slip through my hands

i don't know what i should do to try and make myself ok

i stay angry just to feels something other than the pain

cause everybodys got somebody else, i've only ever had myself

my DNA is programmed for my mind to feel for someone else

i just want to feel ok when i get out of bed

just to have a day where i don't want a bullet in my head

and thats the emptiest threat i've ever heard cause i don't got the guts

but that don't change the fact that i feel like my death is still a must

all the voices in my head that tell me nothing is ok

im alone and that is all my fault cause no one wants to stay

with such a fucked up, damaged, broken man who cant get through the past

because the only home he's ever known just kicked his fucking ass

im tired of being miserable, and angry all the time

but i cant unsee the things i've seen and been through all my life

my eyes are fucking open, the reality is sad

when drug use and my fantasies are the best i've ever had

they say life can be so beautiful, well come live in my town

we will send you fucking packing if you spread that shit around

i feel like nothing is worth saving, i wish i could waste away

when the damage just feels better, than trying to get saved

when happiness feels foreign and you wait for shit to fly

cause that is all you've ever known and you refuse to live a lie