ghosts

i guess i'll never really get over you

and i have to accept that fact

im still not over any of them

but you, that was the one i thought i had for the long haul

you haunt my dreams

last night was particularly heart wrenching

i woke up with that feeling

like i lost you all over again

and it carried with me all day

i miss that person

but you're not that person anymore

i couldn't get her back if i tried

she wanted to become someone else

and she pushed me out of her life in doing so

that person i knew is dead

i wish i wasn't so scared to walk around town

afraid of running into a corpse

i guess i go all in way too far

i guess i should save something for the break up

something to get me through to the other side

but thats not in my nature

and i guess i kinda hope it kills me, every time

it never really goes away

we just learn to ignore the ache

but there are always times

when the ache gets the best of you

all my failures walk through my life like ghosts

haunting my houses, scattering my life

making sure i never truly get to sleep

you were supposed to be the last one

the reason for living

the way through all the trauma

the one light i had

now i don't let anyone close

my nerves wont allow it

now i just want it all to end

im gonna end up in box

with my whole life ahead of me

and my talents a shame

im gonna end up a disappointment

like everything else