There is No Future

No future

That’s how it’s always been

I lived it like there was no tomorrow

And I was sure I would be dead

At the end of my twenties

Every relationship grows stale

Shaves the edges off

Puts a tint over the lens

Can’t see each other clearly anymore

Bored of stagnation

Can’t breathe

Makes the loneliness sink deeper

Like a knife finding more flesh

A constant ache in your core

Turns your eyebrows in

Pulls your head down

You love them but they aren’t enough

She was enough, but she went away

Now my life is haunted

By knowing how great it could have been

And witnessing what it became

Nothing to fill me up

Always on empty

Dead man walking the day she left me

No dead man can have a lover

A corpse is too cold to touch

The ache goes on endlessly

Taunts me in my sleep

Laughs at me in my head

Tells me I deserve this

And everything is always going to be painful

My nerves stand on end, perpetual

My lips dry and weak

My heart like bad plumbing in an old building

Makes sounds in the walls

Cries in it’s sleep

If trend is what you want, I have nothing to offer

I’m just drifting on a one way road

Hoping to see a sign

Hoping for some life

There’s gotta be somebody out there

But I see dead ends and open road

My bones get heavier

Get weaker

Joints falling apart

Sore all the time

Something as simple as good company

Shouldn’t have to be so hard