God Will Beg Me for Forgiveness

Im fucking over this

I am fed up with hope

I’ll break illusions over my knee

I chew my tongue to shut me up

No one told me death would be so hard

I can’t even just fucking die

I’m forced to live through all this shit

Malignant and contagious

Never enough rope

Never a tall enough building

Too many safety nets

Too many pathetic attempts

Lets get this over with

I am not proud of this

Whats left to drag me through

All cuts and lines in my skin

The air not fit to breath

The food not fit to eat

The sights not fit to see

Always something wrong with me

I always feel so sad

And I just mask with hate

Pissed off internalized

And all these empty eyes