plastics

im thinking of only plastics and how fast, and what it would take to get my hand around that wheel
theres only so many lines to cross, and a couple ways to go
you can point that finger all you want
this is happening whether you like it or not
im a low self esteem son of a bitch and im full of self doubt
are things really the way they seem?
too many questions, i dont like questions
bad news is news in general
i still feel the eyes on me everywhere i go
i walk in discomfort
as if this body is not my own
this face i see in the mirror is someone else
seasonally affective and bi polar
apology after apology
god ive apologized so many times
but how can you not open your mouth
how can anyone just stand there and not let their voice be heard
even someone unstable like me can see that
turn to the left
turn to the right
change the channel
give it more gas
theres no fucking point anymore
everything has already been done
the market is flooded
this isnt what it used to be
it doesnt mean the same things
this isnt fun anymore