an oldy but goldy. found this in the dregs of my computer.

it looks so good and it looks so real
and shes the most amazing thing that i have ever seen
and it sits inside my swollen headand it makes me obsess and desire for her
every curve and light blessed body part
every shine of god touched skin
makes every nerve scream at my mind
and my eyes twitch at the sight of it all
i feel weak in my knees
and my heart is feeling faint
i think my eyes are shedding tears faster than
i can even think
but i think i would rather remove my own heart
than to feel the things i feel for her
cause i know where it goes, and know how i feel
and i know that i'll regret every last kiss
i'll be that much more dead by the time she is gone
and no ring, and no praise will keep her here
nothing i can ever say or do
will make any sense of anything that happens between a man
and a woman
i want nothing to do with any of it
liars are all responsible for this
i was lied to when i was told love is a beautiful thing
i was lied to when i was told i was loved
all i ever hear is lies
i have been lied to
and i refuse to get lost in her eyes again
i dont want to feel my heart
this is the bullshit lies that i have tried to shove in everyones fucking pathetic face for as long as i can remember
no i see it for what it is
and fuck you for every saying you love me
fuck you