drug withdrawal in a cold room
night terrors wake me up in a shake
i kept waking up thinking i was dying
it was hard to move
my head is swimming
my eyes do that vision shift thing
stomach turns, trying to kick this grip on my throat
swallow pills that turn into candy before my very eyes
take 20 of these and call me in the morning
i felt really alive for the first time in my life
even if this kills me, it was worth it
no one can possibly understand if they have never felt this way
its a feeling you can never describe
you dont know hitting bottom
all you want, ever second of every day, is for it all to be over, as soon as possible
ive uncovered all the lies i was ever told
things i believed, that i modeled my life around
ive discovered my own truths
and im happier all on my own
in a world of liars and whore, its easy to get trapped
i chewed through the ropes and slit the guards throat
if side effects are the worst thing to come of this
i'll take it with pride, like a fucking graduate diploma
im not ever going back
if i ever see anything resembling that life
im killing myself on the spot